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Do you care deeply and carry a lot?

You’ve always been the sensible one. Dependable. Yet these days you’re just about holding it together.

Still, you lie awake solving problems that were never yours to begin with. But if you share yours you get confusion or told to quit - now you’re the burden. There’s this whole sensitive side to you, unseen and unfelt - too much, but also never enough.

Meanwhile, less self-conscious people step up and get what they want. It’s unfair, yet secretly you wonder - how’s it so easy for them? Can you have it your way without becoming a selfish ars*hole?

Maybe you’ve noticed certain situations where you feel really good, free. With lovely people who take you as you are - curious, loving and playful. While others dump their stuff on you, idolise, or pressure you to be someone you aren’t.

You know you feel better in nature, walking, slowing down or phone-off, but doing ‘nothing productive’ feels oddly uneasy. Rest isn’t rest - it’s self-improvement podcasts and fixing flaws. Pleasure is earned.

You’ve built a pretty impressive dam, my friend. From the outside everything seems intact, but behind it the pressure keeps rising. There are cracks. Now you worry it’ll break. What then?!

What really stings is you’ve journaled all this, studied books and videos, maybe even taken it to therapy. You work on yourself - but it’s the same old cycle again and again.

Now you’re fed-up.

Because all you really want is to put yourself forward without shrinking. To do good in the world, as your best self, helping those who struggle. 

And to stop taking all this so seriously. Maybe even have a laugh and enjoy yourself.